How many times have you thought you weren’t worth enough? Felt like you didn’t deserve to live in this house, drive that car, work at that job, or simply felt your worth wasn’t valuable enough? Too many I bet. Friend, I’m right with you. Satan and his little demons have won many battles because I let their lies triumph me. I can listen to sermons and worship music and feel like I can conquer the world. The minute those lies start coming through, that dark cloud resurfaces and rains on my parade.
We also let our past hinder us from prospering. Why? Why do we give our past so much power but our futures less? Who says that you aren’t worth the blessings that God has for you? Is it those people you call friends? Honey, why are you holding on to the past when the blood of Jesus has cleansed you?
Isaiah 53:5 – But he [was] wounded for our transgressions, [he was] bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace [was] upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.
I’m sure plenty of my old friends can say that I don’t deserve the opportunity to write for Memoirs of a Virtuous Woman. Or I’m hiding behind my sins trying to put on a facade as a ‘born-again Christian.’ Better yet, that ex-boyfriend can smirk at my praying. To the world I look like a failure because I dropped out of college and still live with my mother. I’m a failure because I’m 27 years old with no man or kids to show forth. I’m a failure because I can’t put the fried chicken down and pick up the kale. I’m a failure because I have more fun crocheting in my room than out twerking and clubbing. To the world, I’m not cool and fun because I believe in God. I’m uncool because I want to wait until I am married to have sex.
Can’t you see that there is no pleasing the world? Trying to fit in with the world will never work because you will NEVER fit in. According to the world’s standards, I look like a failure, BUT to God, I’m right where I need to be. You are right where you need to be. God has redeemed me. To the old friends who say I don’t deserve this, God thought I did because he opened the door. I don’t hide behind a façade. I’m transparent and open to share my testimony with any ear that wants to listen. To that boyfriend, reminisce on the past as long as you want. I may have given you my body in sin but you won’t have it in righteousness.
So what if I dropped out college? God made away and opened a door that I have a good paying job and the only qualification needed was my experience. And guess how I got the experience? From opened doors God opened. And yes, I still live at home. Got a problem, because I don’t, neither does my mother. Does that devalue my worth? There are no kids or husband because God still has me hidden and when it is time, that vail will be removed. I am curved and I love it all. I love my nights alone, with God. My clubbing and twerking days are far behind. And while I’m not a virgin, my husband will be the next and the last.
See, people like to point out our flaws and not congratulate our growth. Why do I worship God? If you knew me then and see where I am now, you’d know why. I am right where God wants me to be. God has saved me from burning in hell. In the Old Testament, those people didn’t have grace and mercy as we do now. They had immediate punishment for their sins. Sucked in the earth, burned with fire and brimstone. The list goes on. Could you imagine having to wait for specific days to offer sacrifices for your sins? Carrying around the guilt and shame for weeks, months, and years? I know I couldn’t have. We need to stop taking Jesus Christ crucifixion for granted.
When the enemy tries to attack, speak Gods word over your life:
“But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.” ~ Philippians 4:19
“For the LORD God [is] a sun and shield: the LORD will give grace and glory: no good [thing] will he withhold from them that walk uprightly.”~ Psalms 84:11
“Fear not, for I have redeemed you, I have called you by your name; you are mine.” Isaiah 43:1
“No weapon formed against you shall prosper and every tongue which rises against you in judgement you shall condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord….”Isaiah 54:1
“For I the Lord, your God, will hold your right hand, saying to you, fear not; I will help you.”~ Isaiah 41:13
“I will be a Father to you, and you shall be my sons and daughters, says the Lord Almighty.” 2 Corinthians 6:18
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have pasted away; behold, all things have become new.”~ 2 Corintians 5:17
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.”~ Proverbs 3:5,6
“And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.”~Romans 8:28
My dear sister, you are worth far more than rubies. The devil trembles when you rise in the morning. God knew you before you were in the womb and knows the number of hairs on your head. He opens doors no man can shut. There is a calling on your life. Jesus is preparing a place for you. What else do you need? Who can do the things that God can and will do? He gave you life. He gave you another twenty-fours to get it right. Why would you not want to live for Him? Don’t let your past get you a first class ticket to hell.
Satan and his demons already have premium platinum seats. Don’t let a fallen angel convince you otherwise of God’s glory that burns within you. Satan is jealousy because God knows you by name. Why give him power when he has to ask permission to tempt you! It’s your name written in that book of life, not his.
About the Author: Chelsea Moore is a young vibrant woman seeking Gods heart while soaking up the sun in beautiful Florida. She is a daughter, sister, God-mother to many, friend, and lover of all things girly. When she isn’t soaking up sun rays on the beach, her time is spent coordinating family activities, reading a book, or spending quiet time with God in her prayer corner. As of recent, Chelsea has started stepping out on faith and pursuing the calling God has implemented on her life: becoming a Christian Author.