Over the past couple of days I’ve been reading the book of Proverbs. With each chapter and each verse, the Holy Spirit convicts me greatly. It amazes me that people with high IQ’s and all the literature knowledge in the world are ignorant to the word of God. We are so quick to quote poetry, debate history, but argue down until we are blue in the face the true word of God. Why is that?

Over the course of my twenty-seven years of living I’ve read the book Proverbs several times. Both of my bibles are filled with yellow and pink highlights. Why was this time different? What caused me to look at the scriptures with new eyes? Well, for one I sought the Lord in prayer because I wanted wisdom and understanding for certain ideas and thoughts I had been thinking; nothing perverted but acts that would cause me to really put my faith in action and step out on faith. I was tired of hearing and reading of other sisters and brothers in Christ talk about their relationship with God and how they were able to hear him like the Sunday morning hymns. I wanted to be able to hear the Holy Spirt without placing myself in compromising situations.

I heard Him loud and clear throughout this weekend. I heard Him in my heart – the convictions he rained down on me day in and day out. Proverbs 1:7 “The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge: but fools despise wisdom and instruction”.  Why do we conform so? We say with our lips that we won’t cuss, judge, or gossip, but the minute our environment is now filled with family, friends, coworkers, etc. all that changes. Proverbs 1:10 “My son, if sinners entice thee, consent thou not.” We don’t listen at all. Instead we open our mouths and engage.

My test came this weekend with my family, which seems to always be my test. 50% of my family are believers and the other 50% aren’t. For years I thought it was normal to gossip and talk about people because besides eating that was the main thing we always did. We talked about people, cussed like sailors, and ate. Then I began taking my faith seriously and sought a true authentic relationship with God. Let’s just say he chosen me all my flaws and then some. Proverbs 6:16-19 “16 These six things doth the Lord hate: yea, seven are an abomination unto him: A proud look, a lying tongue, and hands that shed innocent blood. An heart that deviseth wicked imaginations, feet that be swift in running to mischief. A false witness that speaketh lies, and he that soweth discord among brethren.”

Each time I am around them I slowly slip into my old ways and conform to the ways of man. The words out my mouth become an abomination to God. What happened to fearing the Lord? What happened to all those inspirational post I posted? Did I just conform and become the hypocrite that I post about? James 4:17 “Therefore to him that knoweth to do good, and doeth it not, to him it is sin.” I knowingly knew what I was doing but I still decided to sin against God. What about judgment day? Now I’ve added another thing for me to be judged on. When will the cycle stop?

We went to Fat Tuesday’s on the beach this weekend, which is like an outdoor bar with loud music and pool tables. Doing the entire ride there and back I prayed and prayed for God to grant us grace and mercy. One, I don’t drink, but that night I did. Two, I don’t do club-like environments, but I went. See what happened here? To please others I conformed to theirs to please THEM. Yeah, it was nice to get out the house but we could’ve done the same thing somewhere else like an ice cream parlor.

I spent most of the time praying that nothing bad would happen and for the Lord to forgive me. But wait, these same people I compromised my beliefs for mocked my decision to wait until marriage for sex. Were they wrong? Absolutely not because how can I say I live for Jesus and don’t do this and that but in the same breath go out drinking and listen to secular music?

They had every right to and there is no need for me to be in my feelings whatsoever. I constantly pray that God opens the door for me to share my testimony and spread his gospel but when it happens I do the complete opposite. How do we know when God is going to use us? He could’ve been using me during that moment to be an example but I choose to different. What’s so hard about saying ‘Sorry guys, I don’t do those things anymore or God’s not going to be happy with my actions if I do this or that’? Having that response instead of agreeing would have opened a conversation about God and his grace and mercy.

How many times have you compromised your faith to please a friend or family member, better yet your own parents? We, the children of God, have to make a choice. An easy choice – to live wholeheartedly for Christ. Luke 9:23 “And he said to them all, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me.”

My beloved sisters, we have to give up the things of this world even if that means being alone. I am made fun of all the time because certain people ‘assume’ that I don’t have a life because I don’t drink, smoke, club, or fornicate. But understand this, I’ll rather be alone than continue digging myself a grave in hell. It is not worth it. They are not worth it. If they love you as they say they do then they would respect your beliefs and do something else. We have to take a stand to not sit at the gossip table. Take a stand to not slander but uplift. Take a stand to walk by faith and not by sight.

Proverbs 3:5-7 “Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the Lord, and depart from evil.”

About the Author: Chelsea Moore is a young vibrant woman seeking Gods heart while soaking up the sun in beautiful Florida. She is a daughter, sister, God-mother to many, friend, and lover of all things girly. When she isn’t soaking up sun rays on the beach, her time is spent coordinating family activities, reading a book, or spending quiet time with God in her prayer corner. As of recent, Chelsea has started stepping out on faith and pursuing the calling God has implemented on her life: becoming a Christian Author. moore