To let go of my will and desires…
How can I be so full of myself yet be filled with your Spirit? As your child being wholeheartedly yours, I have no will of my own. A servant has no will of his own but follows that of his master. How can I ask my potter why was I made this way? How can I look to my potter and say I will follow my will and not His?
It comes to a point in life where you are tired. Tired of being disobedient to the perfect will of God. Tired of not forgiving. Tired of false appearances. Tired of following your own way. It comes a time when you accept the perfect and painful will of God. That is not to say that Abba adds sorrow to what He blesses you with as Proverbs 10:22 says “The blessing of the Lord, it makes rich, and he adds no sorrow with it.”
You are so used to plans, vain imaginations, you are so used to enforcing your desires and your will upon God that a time comes when you let go of that. When you come to this point, you have allowed God to empty you of your old self completely. To say the least, this process of making you new is a painful process. It includes a season of purging you. To purge, means to remove all in your heart which is not of Him, that which is hindering you from growing and developing intimacy with Him. This process is one that lasts a lifetime, one where you come to understand that your journey with God is in stages, composed of seasons with some being easier than others but each with their own lesson.
Ecclesiastes 3:1 says “To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven.”
It’s painful and scary when God places brings you to the unknown, but his perfect love casts out the fear in you and His grace is sufficient for you. The beauty comes in letting God empty the old creation, molding you into His perfect vessel, empowered by His Spirit.
Let go of everything you thought you knew, everything you thought you were and discover who God has made you and for which purpose you were created. Make God the priority and not a priority in your life. Remember what Christ himself said in the midst of suffering in Luke 22:42 “…nevertheless not my will, but thine, be done.”
Let there be less of you and more of Him. Give yourself to Him withholding nothing and begin your journey in being intimate with the King of Kings, Lord of Lords, the everlasting God.
About the Author: My name is Deborah, I’m currently a student at Sheffield University (UK) studying Theology. After going through countless storms, God called me in having a relationship with him. Now I’m aspiring to grow in what God has called me to do which I believe involves being a Christian author. I’m young and still growing. I enjoy spending time with God, researching, reading, writing. I’m passionate about my family but most of all I’m passionate about people experiencing intimacy with God and bringing those who are not in God to come to know Him and the love that awaits them.